Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Scared


I was reminded of real fear at the weekend.

My heart hammered, and when I wasn't gasping and praying, I was biting my lower lip. Sweat broke out as I immediately overheated and my knees quivered. All those classic responses to fright. Mother's fright. The worst kind.

Swimming lessons. My six year old DD who is short enough to pass for a four year old. Climbing up the ladder of a 12 foot diving board. Stopping at the top. Looking around with her little hands clasped in front of her as if in prayer. Spotting me, waving and stepping off the end of the board into the deep end.

And then doing it all again with a big grin on her face.

OMG.

17 comments:

Rene said...

My kids are like that too. They have no fear. I don't remember ever being like that. While I'm a nervous wreck when they do these things, I hope they maintain their courage as they reach adulthood.

Kelley said...

OMG! I dread those days. My little girl has no fear now at two, I cant imagine how she will be at 6. Kids are so great, arent they?

Bailey Stewart said...

Another step in the road to adulthood - that's scary in itself. Just take deep cleansing breaths.

Peggy said...

I think I would have fainted. But good on your dd to master it and then do it again.

Toni Anderson said...

I thought I might cry. Not sure if it was from fear or pride. This little mite way up there as if it were normal. I'd have been crawling on my hands and knees.

Meretta said...

Mom's are the best for imagining the worst. We should get medals for our overactive imaginations. YAY DD, despite her mum's trepidations!

Deb said...

Well done dd - you should show her how it's done from the top board! I'm embarking on the life guard course in the next couple of weeks, just to support the swimming instructing (in case I drown one of my little angels ;-)) Help!

Toni Anderson said...

Deb, I didn't want to empty to pool--or cry like a...well like a girl!!

She's doing great--much better than me :)

Brandy said...

Agghhh! My worst fear. Not being able to control the safety of my kids. Way to go on letting your DD do it!!!! Now, now that the anxiety is passed you need CHOCOLATE! j/k.

Melissa Marsh said...

Oh boy. I am not looking forward to those swim lessons. I can't swim myself so my fear will be doubly so, I imagine.

Dennie McDonald said...

nope sorry - cannot do that.. that would be a dad job -

my dad used to have a pool, one day we go over there I was 7 or 8 mo.s preggers and heir runs through the house and straight into the pool - I pulled him out by his hair then had to sit still for a very long time while hubby guarded the door so he couldn't do it again!

Scott said...

I get the same fear watching my two year old walking up and down stairs, and refusing violently to accept my help.

Toni Anderson said...

I have to tell you Scott--it isn't the same fear. You'll get there one day though, I'm sure, or maybe have experienced it with Jackson. Teetering on the edge of the board SO high up! Feeling totally helpless and terrified. Man oh man.

Dennie--my kids are like that. Love the water and throw themselves in. The neighbors have a pool and I get a bit freaked out they'll get over there and jump in without me knowing. Sheesh. Swimming lessons swimming lessons swimming lessons. We haven't stopped since we lived in Oz and I think it pays off, even if I'm going grey!

Nick Zegarac said...

Fear of the water - yep, sign me up. I don't even like to go out with a life jacket and rubber ducky. * I'm kidding.

Toni Anderson said...

Hello Nick :) My current hero has a fear of water. Makes for an interesting twist when you stick him next to the ocean.

Janice (5 Minutes for Mom) said...

AACH! that picture is so scary when you read your post!

my son is so cautious though - i don't know if he will ever go in the deep end(he is 4 now.)

Toni Anderson said...

Janice--that is a good thing!! At least you can trust them a little bit more!!